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You Will Die Together but Alone
Nov. 22nd, 2008 10:58 amStories travel faster if technological advancements were involved, isn't it? Now, it's time to set the record straight.
There are always two sides of the story, as they say. Sure, when a fight arises, each side has its own share of faults. So before I tell everything, I'm acknowledging that yes, I'm a big part of this ruckus and I did damage on this and I'm apologizing to all my closest friends especially Maki-niichan, Jason-niichanand Osay, that if it wasn't for me, you'd never been involved in this messy situation.
You see, I'm an emotional person -I show up my feelings freely to anyone. Sometimes, my emotional and rational side get to mix up especially when family and friends are being involved. I get hurt by mean taunts thrown at me but it's nothing compared if people I'm closest with are being hurt.
Rin and Mrachy are pointing out that Osay's issue was so long ago. The thing is, Osay asked me beforehand requested me not to confront her.I was against it, but I gave in. But since my conscience is not that dense and I truly know that even though it looks like it's been put to rest, it's not the case. If you hear a young girl crying her soul out on the telephone, you will know what I mean. So last week, I had mustered up all my courage to tell Marchy about it. I directly pointed out her faults, because I know, as a friend, that's the right thing to do. After that, things started to get worse - she asked me not to be her friend anymore. I agreed because I know that we can't still be friends after this.
Events are worst after that. Petty words were thrown on both sides. Yes, I admit I did that on the first day. If it wasn't for Melai requesting me to stop, I'd still continue it. So what I did,I just did my usual routines such as focusing on my school work.
Now, this is the boiling point for me: yesterday, Marchy group messaged us saying to hide Sanada, Chinen and Mori for there is a gay pedophile considering them as brothers. This one blew me out of proportion. It wasn't explicitly described as Rin puts it on Maki-niichan's comment, but I'm not totally oblivious nor stupid for not knowing whom she's referring to.I consider it as an "under-the-belt" remark - Jason-niichan never even uttered a word nor made a remark against her, then she treated him as like that.
Maki-niichan wrote his piece of mind and words spreaded like a Californian wild fire. Marchy's friends defended her. Of course, I'm not stupid, I know that this will happen. But in my whole honest opinion - if they're really her friend, they should point them out her faults and shortcomings as an individual. I know it's hard , but it's even harder for her because in the end,it's better to know it than to be dumbfounded.
Rin group messaged us,enraged on what happened. No, I didn't dictate Maki-niichan to write his entry-he made it in his own free will. And if you're attacking me about the grades thing - it isn't my fault; she should done something about it. If you're implying to me that I'm a bad because I'm smart and I never failed and I don't know what it feels like to fail - well, it's a fallacy, I did fail some tests but it's a fact that I never failed any of my subjects ever because I hate failing in the end and I know that if that happened, it will frustrate not only me but also my father.
Bottom line is, all has been said and done. I don't care if someone will badmouth me after this. I've told my side and that's enough. This will be my last time to talk about this. I'm sorry for all the confusion and ruckus done.
To HS4 and Buono, good luck to all your future endeavors but a word of advice: before you go doing things fandom related, have a college degree first. No, I'm not dictating all of you but formal education in a good school is important for all of us to survive in this competitive world. I don't mind if you don't take this advice - I just said my two cents worth.
I shall end this. I still have my English class in minutes.
Ad Marjorem Dei Gloriam
Lux in Domino
Magis
---Bea
There are always two sides of the story, as they say. Sure, when a fight arises, each side has its own share of faults. So before I tell everything, I'm acknowledging that yes, I'm a big part of this ruckus and I did damage on this and I'm apologizing to all my closest friends especially Maki-niichan, Jason-niichanand Osay, that if it wasn't for me, you'd never been involved in this messy situation.
You see, I'm an emotional person -I show up my feelings freely to anyone. Sometimes, my emotional and rational side get to mix up especially when family and friends are being involved. I get hurt by mean taunts thrown at me but it's nothing compared if people I'm closest with are being hurt.
Rin and Mrachy are pointing out that Osay's issue was so long ago. The thing is, Osay asked me beforehand requested me not to confront her.I was against it, but I gave in. But since my conscience is not that dense and I truly know that even though it looks like it's been put to rest, it's not the case. If you hear a young girl crying her soul out on the telephone, you will know what I mean. So last week, I had mustered up all my courage to tell Marchy about it. I directly pointed out her faults, because I know, as a friend, that's the right thing to do. After that, things started to get worse - she asked me not to be her friend anymore. I agreed because I know that we can't still be friends after this.
Events are worst after that. Petty words were thrown on both sides. Yes, I admit I did that on the first day. If it wasn't for Melai requesting me to stop, I'd still continue it. So what I did,I just did my usual routines such as focusing on my school work.
Now, this is the boiling point for me: yesterday, Marchy group messaged us saying to hide Sanada, Chinen and Mori for there is a gay pedophile considering them as brothers. This one blew me out of proportion. It wasn't explicitly described as Rin puts it on Maki-niichan's comment, but I'm not totally oblivious nor stupid for not knowing whom she's referring to.I consider it as an "under-the-belt" remark - Jason-niichan never even uttered a word nor made a remark against her, then she treated him as like that.
Maki-niichan wrote his piece of mind and words spreaded like a Californian wild fire. Marchy's friends defended her. Of course, I'm not stupid, I know that this will happen. But in my whole honest opinion - if they're really her friend, they should point them out her faults and shortcomings as an individual. I know it's hard , but it's even harder for her because in the end,it's better to know it than to be dumbfounded.
Rin group messaged us,enraged on what happened. No, I didn't dictate Maki-niichan to write his entry-he made it in his own free will. And if you're attacking me about the grades thing - it isn't my fault; she should done something about it. If you're implying to me that I'm a bad because I'm smart and I never failed and I don't know what it feels like to fail - well, it's a fallacy, I did fail some tests but it's a fact that I never failed any of my subjects ever because I hate failing in the end and I know that if that happened, it will frustrate not only me but also my father.
Bottom line is, all has been said and done. I don't care if someone will badmouth me after this. I've told my side and that's enough. This will be my last time to talk about this. I'm sorry for all the confusion and ruckus done.
To HS4 and Buono, good luck to all your future endeavors but a word of advice: before you go doing things fandom related, have a college degree first. No, I'm not dictating all of you but formal education in a good school is important for all of us to survive in this competitive world. I don't mind if you don't take this advice - I just said my two cents worth.
I shall end this. I still have my English class in minutes.
Ad Marjorem Dei Gloriam
Lux in Domino
Magis
---Bea
